oops. the hours.

I didn't realise what I've been and who I've became until I read that previous post.
Bryan was right, I did did some things out of revenge.
I was blinded by my pride and childishness at some time during that day.
Little did I realised the 'realist' I was trying hard to roleplay at the Q & A session made a wrong and bias man out of me, stuck up to the belief that I had came up with the best idea, and my idea alone the best of all.

I wanted to be persistent. I was curious at how the other groups were going to settle other problems, because I believe in challenge. Not so much against one another, but one against oneself. Therefore I am really interested to learn from the other groups, of their solutions. And perhaps I could apply their principles somewhere on me, as an essentiality for personal growth.

However, most of us by now knows how it is already, who you want to become isn't what you really are. You get blinded by pride, fall into traps and get disillusioned - you become somebody else. Or, you can be trying so hard, but you'd still haven't been enough - you are still someone else.

Yesterday, I viewed things from the best perspective I know to do evaluation of the solutions for problems. I'm not sure about how others will interpret that perspective as, but as a matter of fact Amanda didn't think it was wise, then it must be unwise, and I should therefore do change. Also, I'm not going to be stopped for how others are thinking in their displeasure of the unprofessional behaviour I gave during the session because no one can be absolute about anything, but I'm not trying to deny anything especially not the fact that I am very sorry for my attitude and behaviour to all.

~ in The Hours I contemplated ~

Of yesterday's combined meeting,
uh. we have to do a video now.
not sure if it's great or not for me.
i mean, it could be fun.
but like what i say, ''could''.

so we saw examples of how our video should look like as the final product.
and know what to avoid. hmmm... i'd say, just how much we can avoid? =x
uhhhgghh i dunno... i'm being pessimistic of tasks again...

things are going to come together...

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